After 7 years of tracking everything I eat, I have deleted MyFitnessPal.
I am not an experienced runner. I honestly don’t know how much I need to eat to feel my best now that I have this new hobby where I continually push my endurance limits. All I know is that I still wake up at 3:30am hungry, and although that is unfortunately a normal occurrence during bodybuilding contest prep, it shouldn’t be happening when I’m trying to gain weight. If MyFitnessPal prevents me from eating enough just because 3000 calories sounds like too much, then it isn’t serving its purpose.
I will always argue that tracking your intake is the most effective way to reach weight-related goals (loss or gain). However, after 7 years of having a weight-related goal, I am realizing that my primary goal now has nothing to do with weight. Of course, I want to gain healthy body fat, but it isn’t my main focus. I don’t care how much weight I gain or don’t gain each week. I just want to feel good. I want to run longer, lift heavier, and love better. I want to sleep through the night. I don’t need to track every morsel of food I eat to do these things. I need to relearn what it means to be hungry and full.
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to see food as pure nourishment rather than as portions of carbohydrates, protein, fat, vitamins, and minerals, but I think that’s okay. I just need to relearn how to choose foods based on how I feel in the moment rather than planning everything in advance. If I’m hungry, I should probably eat something. What a concept.